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Friday, Dec. 14, 2001 - 11:07 a.m. - What We've Been Up To
I’m not sure if I’ll be updating regularly yet, but I did want to let everyone know that I’m doing much better. This painting project we’ve been working on has successfully kept me focused on something other than my barren womb (at least most of the time). I’ve hardly had any time to read email, let alone write journal entries for the last 13 days. My day consists of sanding, priming and painting, eating something for dinner and then falling into bed exhausted only to get up in the morning and start all over again. At least now we can see the end is near and as soon as the last pieces are put into place, I’ll be sure to take some photos and post them. I took some before shots, so I can post some before and after pictures. Wohoo!
We’ve kept Midnight locked up in our master bedroom for the majority of the time while we’ve been working on this project since we don’t need her getting into the paint and leaving painty paw prints all over our house (as cute as that might be in a way), but when the paint is all dry and everything’s been put away we have let her out. In no time at all, this is where we found her….. Unfortunately with all the work we’ve been doing around here, Christmas has been put on the back burner. We have yet to decorate at all. I don’t think I’ll be doing Christmas cards at all this year and to be honest, it’s kind of a relief right now. I know I have so much to be thankful for and am such a fortunate person in so many ways, and yet this year has been a pretty hard one all together for me – a miscarriage in January, surgery in April, laid off in July, hubby laid of in September, 3 failed IUIs and one failed IVF. I know I could list as many GOOD things happening, but they just don’t stand out in my mind like the negative things do. I know this isn’t good and for the most part I tend to be a positive person, but I’m feeling more like the Grinch than ol’ Saint Nick this year. No, that’s not really true, I wouldn’t say I’m really like the Grinch, but I’m certainly not myself this holiday season. I resolve to do better though. Perhaps when we have a few decorations up and our Christmas tree the spirit will come back to me. But probably not in time to send out Christmas cards! So to all my friends out there who read my journal, please know that while you may not receive a card from me this year, you are all still in my thoughts and I’m sending happy holiday thoughts your way!! Perhaps I’ll send Valentine’s Cards instead!
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