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Monday, Jan. 14, 2002 - 9:59 p.m. - Two Down and Five To Go
I was completely lazy this weekend about updating. I hope you will forgive me. There wasn’t much to report anyway -- I did a lot of lying around and reading and finally finished Glass Lake by Maeve Binchy while Michael spent most of his time studying his notes from his class. He returned safe and sound from Austin, TX Saturday morning completely psyched once again about the course he attended. He just can’t say enough good things about this MCSE course. What he likes best about it is that the trainer teaches for understanding, not to the test. In other words, they don’t encourage people to memorize information for the test, but rather to understand the information that the test will cover. Last time Michael completed all 6 tests for his MCSE in 2 weeks after the course. Most people spend a week at a course for a single test! If you know anyone who is looking to obtain their MCSE and wants to know a highly recommended study course for it, be sure to email me! Well, his hard work last week is already paying off. Today he passed 2 MCP tests already! He took the Windows 2000 Professional and the Windows 2000 Server exams today and passed both! The people at the testing center couldn’t believe that he had scheduled two tests for the same day and they were even more amazed as he came out acing both of them! I’m so proud of him! I was hoping he’d pass one of the two! I couldn’t believe it when he told me he had passed both!! I’m still feeling much the same even though I’m supposed to be in my sixth week of pregnancy now. I’m still feeling like I’m not pregnant at all and I keep saying “If I’m pregnant after this next ultrasound then…” and my husband keeps saying “Heidi, you are pregnant right now". But I just can’t help it, I don’t feel like this is real and unfortunately I know that everything can change so fast. In fact, yesterday I received some rather disturbing news and considering the state of mind I’m currently in, it probably wasn’t the best kind of news to be receiving. I believe I mentioned before my IVF attempt that my pharmacists at my local pharmacy are just so sweet to me. Being that they are dispensing all my medications, they are aware of what we are doing to try and conceive and are always wishing us well and anxious to hear how things are going. I found out that one of the pharmacists was particularly interested in my situation, since she also has PCOS and finally conceived after doing a round of injectibles and IUI. She was due in April. Sadly, I found out yesterday as I went in to pick up my prednisone prescription, that she went into early labor and lost her baby. I mean, here she was, at least 5 months along and she still wasn’t safe from losing her baby. I’m very aware of the risks of miscarriage even past the first trimester. I know 3 women personally who lost babies in their last month of pregnancy. I know that I’m at higher risk of miscarriage throughout my entire pregnancy due to my Antiphospholipid antibodies issue. The heparin should help, but it isn’t a sure thing. Nothing is sure in pregnancy and it scares me to death. And yet, I know I can’t spend my whole pregnancy worrying the entire time. I will not stop myself from planning a nursery and decorating. I’m just not quite ready to let my heart believe in this miracle of ours just yet. I think I need to at least see a heartbeat before I can even believe that this is on the right track. That’s why a little morning sickness would be welcome around here. If I didn’t feel so darn normal, maybe I could believe that this was really happening after all this time and have some reassurance that everything is continuing to develop as it should. So while I’m counting down the days till my next ultrasound, my husband will hopefully counting down the number of tests he still needs to pass before he can write Windows 2000 MCSE on his resume. He’s got 2 down and 5 to go.
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