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Tuesday, Jan. 22, 2002 - 10:01 p.m. - Jet Lagged
This insomnia is kicking my a$$! Today once again I woke up at 4:30 to go to the bathroom and was sure that I would be able to go back to sleep since it was still so early, but no, I ended up watching the clock tick off the minutes until 5:00 am. So once again I quietly got up and headed downstairs. Yesterday I hadn’t taken a nap although I really wanted to hoping that I would be so tired I would sleep through the night. Unfortunately the only thing that happened that by 8:00 this morning I felt like I had a major case of jet lag. If you’ve ever flown someplace with at least a 9 hour time difference (ie. From Seattle to Frankfurt, Germany) you know what I’m talking about. So I decided to lay down and see if I could sleep a little, but I had to be sure to wake up by 10:00 so I could give myself my heparin injection. Oh man did I crash!! By the time Michael came in to wake me at 10:00, I was sleeping so deeply I was in the middle of a dream. It was SO hard to get up and do the shot, and then because I didn’t want to waste my day I took my shower and got dressed. But I still felt like I was majorly jet-lagged. I slogged around the house doing a few things and ate lunch, but Michael could tell I was out of it. Finally he said, why don’t you go take a nap. He didn’t have to suggest it twice. I slept from 2:00 until 6:00!!! So much for not wanting to waste the day! I just hope that I don’t have a problem falling asleep tonight because of my nap. Michael was joking that we seem to be taking shifts sleeping, since he went off to bed at 9:00 because he’s taking another MCP test tomorrow and likes to get up early to study. It sure does feel that way. I did look up information on Prednisone and found that one of the side effects for some people is insomnia. Funny, I took Prednisone before and while I did notice a difference in my sleep when I finally got off of it, I never had sleep problems this bad. But sometimes too much information isn’t such a good thing. I also found out what a nasty drug Prednisone is. It is NOT good for your body in general, but it is essential for me with my autoimmune issues, so I will take it for as long as I need to, but that doesn’t make me feel better. I also found information about all th autoimmune issues that I have and my pregnancy and some of the information just scared the crap out of me (things like high incident of 2nd trimester miscarriage and 70 -80% live birth rates), so I decided that ignorance is bliss to a point, so I’m not going to read anything like that any more. I think I’d just be borrowing trouble if I kept it up. I want to enjoy this pregnancy as best I can and there are enough worries with out adding more. Thankfully on Thursday we are going in for my next ultrasound. I know most people don’t have their first ultrasound until their first OB appointments which are often not until the 8th – 12th week of their pregnancies. I don’t know how they handle waiting that long. I’m so thankful to be having all these early ultrasounds. I really need them to calm me down and reassure me that things are on track. And I still worry in between them! I’m particularly happy that Michael will be going to this one with me. I want him to see our little “peep” and the heartbeat himself. Seeing that little heartbeat makes all the difference in the world in regard to making it real. Unfortunately last time, I was able to see the heartbeat, but the next week when Michael came with me, there wasn’t a heartbeat anymore. I must admit a tiny part of me is really afraid that that is going to happen again. The only thing that makes me feel better is that my boobies are still tender (though it does come and go), so I feel like this pregnancy is still ‘progressing.’ I just hope our little Peep has grown like it should. Hopefully we’ll be able to get a better measurement and set a more definite due date, since originally it was September 8, but then I measured 4 days off in my last ultrasound, so it might be closer to September 12. I’d like to know so I can start making notes in the pregnancy journal I bought. (It has you count back from your due date and provides details of how your baby is developing each day. It’s really neat. Athena told me about it.) In other news (because I want to record this information for my own record) I had another coagulation assay done yesterday and today they called me back and told me I need to increase my Heparin dosage again. Now they want me to do 8000 units each shot! Once again this concerns me. I know that they are just trying to keep my numbers at a certain level, but the fact that we have to keep increasing worries me. I hope that we can “level off” sometime soon. In good news my thyroid doctor felt my levels were perfect right now and is going to monitor me closely during my pregnancy so I go in for another blood test at his office next month. At least one hormone level is where it should be right now! Well, since I didn’t get any email to the contrary, I’m giving up on We Were the Mulvaneys. I’m happily moving on to The Bonesetter’s Daughter and am much more entertained. Reading shouldn’t be work, it should be an enjoyment. I figure there are too many good books out there waiting to be read to slog through something that doesn’t hold my attention or move me in any way.
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