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Wednesday, Apr. 03, 2002 - 8:09 p.m. - Another Negative Test Result
In case you don’t read my weblog, my dear friend Diffy did not get good news about her IVF results on Monday. I was so terribly sad for her. Only someone who has gone through the whole long, complex process of IVF and then received a negative test result can understand just how hard that receiving that phone call is. All your hopes and all your dreams for over an entire month is resting on that one test result and when it comes back negative you feel like a trapdoor has opened under you and all your nightmares are coming true. Even worse when you have to scrimp and borrow to pay for the procedure. I guess Michael and I were extremely fortunate that our IVF only cost us around $1500 because our insurance covered most of it, but insurance that covers IVF is extremely unusual and were paying big time in monthly COBRA payments so really that number is much higher if you count that in. At least if you get pregnant it is worth every penny, but if you don’t…. Well, it’s just horrible. Ironically we also got a negative result on our quad-screen test, but unlike my poor friend a negative result is good in this instance. In fact, it is pretty darn fantastic!! I’ve been on cloud 9 all day due to this good news. I had a feeling our little Peep would be fine, but of course, there was a little worry still lingering around the edges of my mind. I was pretty anxious on Monday when we were supposed to get the results and my anxiety increased as Tuesday passed without any news. Finally this morning I called my OB’s office and asked for the results. They had promised that they would call no matter what the results and they didn’t. Apparently they had the results by Monday and had mailed them to us, but they never called. At any rate, they came back negative which means I will not be doing the amniocentesis. Basically a negative result means that the risk of having a baby with a genetic issue is less than the risk of miscarriage from the amniocentesis. In further baby news, I’m starting to feel our little one move more at times. Not much more and not often enough for it to be regular, but occasionally she seems to be wiggling around quite a bit. It makes me wonder though, since I always seem to feel her on the same side – my left side. Occasionally I will feel her towards the middle but never on my right side. Michael and I went for a nice walk this morning (the weather was beautiful) and during our walk I felt some very distinct kicks or something – must have been the movement or something. Most of the time I only feel her when I’m sitting still or occasionally when I’m lying down. I realized today that I’ve posted the pictures from my trip to Virginia up on Webshots but never posted the link here for those of you who want to go and have a look. I keep meaning to write about our trip or at least some of the highlights, but I obviously haven’t done that yet. If you are interested in seeing some of the pictures check them out here. They are all narrated, so you at least know what you are looking at. Oh and I have to tell you briefly how funny it was to watch Michael on his first visit to the Babies R Us near us. I remember when this store was being built how I was hoping I’d be going to check out the baby things for our own baby soon, but sadly that didn’t happen. At the time Michael promised me that once I got pregnant we would go and take a look. Well, I did that in one of the early weeks of my pregnancy with my mom, but this was the first time Michael had ever been in it, or in any exclusively baby store, in his life. Needless to say he was completely overwhelmed. It was pretty funny to watch him go down the aisles and ask “What the heck is this for?” or “Are we going to need one of these too?” Then when he started adding up the costs of various things he started going a bit green. I had to laugh out loud. At one point he looked down an aisle and saw a “triplet” stroller and he sighed and said, “Thank goodness we won’t be needing one of those.” I was trying to explain the merits of a stroller “travel system” over buying a stroller and a baby carseat separately and the look on his face was priceless – I wish I would have had a camera on me to capture his expression. By then he was completely overwhelmed and exhausted, while I was having the time of my life looking at all the cute things and dreaming and checking out all the moms with babies. It kind of the opposite of how we feel after a visit to Home Depot or Lowes, then Michael could look for hours while I’m pooped after 30 minutes. I just want to get what we need to get and get out of there.
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